I want to be like Margo. full of intricate plans of how I'll make my life better.


Love and Paper Towns,
J

emo

I'm so emotional right now.. maybe its the sad cheesy lifetime movie i watched earlier or the fact that all my roomies and bop it girls went home for break and im very very alone. maybe its because I don't want to try to get a boy because I'm too afraid of not getting one... btu that i want someone to know me this well
eulogy of sorts

this is a girl writing about a boy who she loved who loved God. This boy's body hasn't been found since his car slid on ice and into traffic. the headlights went out so no one could see the car. they got out and ran for the side of the bridge, there was no shoulder so he jumped. he landed in freezing water. The others jumped and held on or got off the bridge or something.. and he didn't. his name was John Paul Foget.

He went to my friends small catholic college. 2000 people.. so i'm sure she knew him or of him.
I didn't cry until I read part of that note
'he watched vlogbrothers with me'

he was a nerdfighter. we lost a nerdfighter.

If I died tomorrow I would be like Margo, most people have a fake view of who I am. No one knows me. and that scares me. I don't want to be remembered as perfect. I don't want to be remembered as enduringly happy.

I'm just scared that no one knows me.

Puppies for PKD (P4A)

good.

Write what you know

I'm going to try to think of something to right about that isn't current events. because writing about them skews them in my mind.



Paper towns

I'm almost done. and I love it. I don't want to finish it because then it will be done. It will definitely be something I read again in a few months.. and I really only did that with a few books.. especially the kewpie primer.




I read this over and over again.
the kewpie primer




I think I'll buy a copy for sienna.



I wish I had good handwriting.



Inside I would write,



Sienna,

Grandma Cleo was a wonderful lady who always knew how to spoil us. Every time one of us grandkids was sick, we got a toy. One thing I shared with her was her love for kewpie dolls. They were marvelous little smiling things that seemed so magical! She gave me this book and I wore it down because I read it so many times! The cover was tearing off and it was just loved to pieces. I don't know where it is now, but I bought you your own copy to love. Hope you love the kewpies as much as I do.

Love always,

your godmother




p.s. this is sienna and I at a wedding last weekend! isn't she adorable!?

Obelius!

I've never been much into politics.

But this year - I want to vote for OBELIUS! that is if Sebelius gets to be the VP!

90-10 and expectations.

"Knowledge of 90-10 doesn't make the 10 irrelevant."

New Years:Birthdays:first kisses. All have high expectations.*

first today was the first day I got asked for a kiss.

Well, a drunk guy once told me "I can tell by the intensity in your eyes that you totally want to get on me right now" but thats as far as he got. this poor guy didn't get far either.

My first kiss will not be with someone I met a few hours earlier. It will be perfect.

First kisses are to New Years are to birthdays. They all have such big expectations. Like, that your friend won't abandon you for some guy at a party.

feeling What started out as a dispiriting couple hours of 2008, turned out quite okay. I <3 my g-dot!

Moment Went to visit my g-dot Shawn today. We colored pictures and I got to see some of her life. It's always pretty sweet to get a view of someone in their home when you're used to only seeing them in one type of environment.

Small world. She had her senior photos taken by my cousin Heather Morrow

quote "In the contemporary world where things fall apart and the center cannot hold, you have to imagine a community where there is no center." - John Green (partially courtesy of william butler yeats)

Toast.Here's to a new year with our favorite brothers. A new year of being proud nerds forming an amazing new community!

Resolutions
I have quite a few.
1.Mind
A. Study
B. Organize
c. Read (a book a month)
d. Write
E. Job: (apply, work, resume)

2. Body
A.Sit ups(25 a day)
B. Stretch
c. Cardio(once a week at least)

3. Soul
A. Pray
b. Church
c. Practice faith
d. boys (learn to flirt , kissed by 21!)
e. friends (keep relationships, make new -- one is silver and the other gold!)


: = is to. ::=as
i/e
letter:envelope::chocolate:box
read:
letter is to envelope as chocolate is to box)


another quote from way back:
"Curbs can be very interesting. But they can be very bad. Curbs keep us back. True, they are good in the sense that they keep the traffic off of sidewalks, but they keep the people away from the street. We are one big world stuck on different curbs. There are race curbs, religion curbs, sex curbs, friendship curbs etc. and we keep ourselves to one. We are to scared to cross the street and introduce ourselves to the person on the other side. Don't limit yourself to one curb. There are other people on other curbs that are interested in the same tv show as you, or same food as you, or believe in the same things and those are the people you want to know. Those are all reasons for building friendships. Starting off with one common interest and expanding it into something deeper. Go deeper into a friendship that noone has ever accomplished but Jesus. Get to know someone, really well. What do they like, what do they hate, what is their family members names, any past pets, everything. Don't be scared. How incredible would it be to know that someone out there really knows who you are. Someone out there would know just how to cheer you up, they would know how to handle things because they know you. Try it. It seems impossible but it will only take time. Step off the curb and introduce yourself to new people, you might be suprised."

written BY LAUREN MCCORD

Made of awesome

so this week is made of awesome


I spent a nice night on mass st. w/ the awesome Danielle (Happy birthday!) I really like Encore, kinda expensive, but very delish!

I exercised @ the rec

I bible studied

I used a suck/awesome analogy using the 90-10 method during the bible study.

I love being a nerdfighter

I watched secret sibling videos (specifically the nerdfighters in nerfighter like)

I was productive

I finished a paper I thought I would never finish. holy crap amazing that I finished it. <3!



I felt just good b/c I'm no longer sick



Music

So, new feature, music of the day.

British Columbia by the Elected click here to hear

The union click here to hear