I miss having a crush on a boy. I have no one right now. and it just makes life seem less hopeful. less hopeful of being normal girl who isn't the one sitting in the back of the minivan lamenting why she is the only one who has never had the telltale hickey.

I don't even have a crush on CM anymore and it just sucks to not have someone to hope for, ya know?

I'm tipsy - had a good night but wish i could have danced more.

i hope i dont reach 22 without being kissed - which is totally plausible. because that would make me feel lamer than lame, which is pretty lame.

Love and alcoholic beverages,
J

my roommate thinks I will do this when I finally get kissed,
run away.

I've never been so sad. ever. And its never because of something big, I'm just always sad.

90-10 and expectations.

"Knowledge of 90-10 doesn't make the 10 irrelevant."

New Years:Birthdays:first kisses. All have high expectations.*

first today was the first day I got asked for a kiss.

Well, a drunk guy once told me "I can tell by the intensity in your eyes that you totally want to get on me right now" but thats as far as he got. this poor guy didn't get far either.

My first kiss will not be with someone I met a few hours earlier. It will be perfect.

First kisses are to New Years are to birthdays. They all have such big expectations. Like, that your friend won't abandon you for some guy at a party.

feeling What started out as a dispiriting couple hours of 2008, turned out quite okay. I <3 my g-dot!

Moment Went to visit my g-dot Shawn today. We colored pictures and I got to see some of her life. It's always pretty sweet to get a view of someone in their home when you're used to only seeing them in one type of environment.

Small world. She had her senior photos taken by my cousin Heather Morrow

quote "In the contemporary world where things fall apart and the center cannot hold, you have to imagine a community where there is no center." - John Green (partially courtesy of william butler yeats)

Toast.Here's to a new year with our favorite brothers. A new year of being proud nerds forming an amazing new community!

Resolutions
I have quite a few.
1.Mind
A. Study
B. Organize
c. Read (a book a month)
d. Write
E. Job: (apply, work, resume)

2. Body
A.Sit ups(25 a day)
B. Stretch
c. Cardio(once a week at least)

3. Soul
A. Pray
b. Church
c. Practice faith
d. boys (learn to flirt , kissed by 21!)
e. friends (keep relationships, make new -- one is silver and the other gold!)


: = is to. ::=as
i/e
letter:envelope::chocolate:box
read:
letter is to envelope as chocolate is to box)


another quote from way back:
"Curbs can be very interesting. But they can be very bad. Curbs keep us back. True, they are good in the sense that they keep the traffic off of sidewalks, but they keep the people away from the street. We are one big world stuck on different curbs. There are race curbs, religion curbs, sex curbs, friendship curbs etc. and we keep ourselves to one. We are to scared to cross the street and introduce ourselves to the person on the other side. Don't limit yourself to one curb. There are other people on other curbs that are interested in the same tv show as you, or same food as you, or believe in the same things and those are the people you want to know. Those are all reasons for building friendships. Starting off with one common interest and expanding it into something deeper. Go deeper into a friendship that noone has ever accomplished but Jesus. Get to know someone, really well. What do they like, what do they hate, what is their family members names, any past pets, everything. Don't be scared. How incredible would it be to know that someone out there really knows who you are. Someone out there would know just how to cheer you up, they would know how to handle things because they know you. Try it. It seems impossible but it will only take time. Step off the curb and introduce yourself to new people, you might be suprised."

written BY LAUREN MCCORD