sadness

So sometimes I'm sad, really intensely sad. And everything around me just makes me sadder and sadder.
Right now, I'm in an upward mode though, everything seems to be getting better, even though not much has changed.
My real GDP of happiness is rising


I am SUCH a nerd. and I love it.

And I love being confident when confident matters.

and I love laughing. I love making people laugh, even if it's just about stupid free sample diapers.

It's hard to imagine complex people when they see you but don't let you see them.

I'm trying to be happy, I'm trying to consider the good. like warm heated blankets and friends who aren't perfect but sure as hell try to be there for me, even when I don't realize it. and reading books helps me feel better, even when dentists just stabbed me with numbing needles, reading let it snow helped to not concentrate on the fact that I was drooling. awesome.



Good mood right now. I like being smart, and me and and happy and all that jazz.

This is sad.

VanLerberg, Dale F.

Dale F. VanLerberg, 82, of Shawnee, Kan., passed away November 12, 2008. A visitation will be held from 4 to 7 p.m. Friday, followed by the rosary at 7 p.m. at the Amos Family Chapel of Shawnee. Funeral Mass will be 11 a.m. Saturday at St. Joseph Catholic Church, Shawnee, followed by burial in Resurrection Cemetery, Lenexa. Dale was born August 29, 1926, in Shawnee to Paul and Madeline VanLerberg. He attended St. Joseph Catholic Grade School and was a graduate of Shawnee Mission North Rural School and Fort Hays University. Dale served as a Merchant Marine and in the US Army during WWII. He was a life long member of St. Joseph Catholic Church, and Knights of Columbus. He was also a proud member of the American Legion. Dale was a dedicated father and grandfather, he touched the lives of many, and will be forever loved and remembered. Dale was preceded in death by his parents and brothers, Clarence and Dick; and sister-in-law, "Cleo." He is survived by his wife, Rosemary VanLerberg; and family, Marsha Callahan (James), Joseph Glynn, Susan Hemberger (Dr. Glenn Hemberger), Kathy Thompson-Rausch (Roger), Patricia Glynn; and his sister, Mary Alice Viscek (Charlie); his brother, Albert VanLerberg and sister-in-law, Dorothy VanLerberg. Also his beloved grandchildren, Amanda, Danny, Dale, Ryan, Jennifer, Brett, Meghan, and Joey. His passing will be deeply felt by all the VanLerberg nieces and nephews. Online condolences may be expressed at www.amosfamily.com Arr.: The Amos Family Chapel of Shawnee, (913) 631- 5566. Memorial contributions in Dale's memory may be to St. Joseph Catholic Church or the American Diabetes Association.

but I loved seeing my family, I love the after--burial lunch. I loved the buttons we made that said 'uncle dale's favorite' and Uncle Ron's letter from '98 that was signed that said he was actually the favorite.

and I love my family. because sometimes I forget just how special and amazing they are.